LOVE LETTER TO MYSELF

I hadn’t realized it, yet you were always here, patient, by my side.
I searched for affection in other people and left you behind.
As the years passed, after waiting so long for love, after enduring so many failures that I came to believe I wasn’t worthy of it, I discover that you are here.

So close that I can touch you, feel you, know what makes you feel good and what hurts you, what your favorite color is, what food you love most, what makes you laugh and what brings you to tears.
I have discovered that there is no one more faithful or loyal.

You are strong and, at the same time, sensitive;
you turn my life into a path filled with vivid colors,
you reach out your hand in moments of darkness,
you gently caress me and whisper in my ear:
“it’s okay, I love you, I’m here for whatever you need.”

Thanks to you, I enjoy my independence and my freedom.
Thanks to you, I have learned to value the meaning of life — of my life.

Forgive me for having set you aside,
for not having counted on you when, in truth, without you I could not live.
You are the engine of my existence and my most unconditional support.

You do not judge me.
You love me without prejudice.
You love me exactly as I am, with my virtues and my flaws.

I promise to love you too, for the rest of my days.

Eternally grateful,